Tomorrow I complete 6 months since I determined to fight gluttony. I am thankful to God for how he has helped me fight my biggest sin.
I have learned that it is not will power that helps us fight a bad habit. Will power is a depleting resource. What one needs is a good reason. The why is very important. As long as the why is true, the will energizes and is renewed to fight each day.
I am still fighting and will keep fighting.
The collateral advantage of not overeating has been healthy weight loss for me. I have lost about 25% of my excess weight. Funny thing – at my highest weight, I was double my healthy weight! And portion control alone has helped me loose 25% of my excess weight. What if I added some exercise to this and worked especially towards a sustainable weight loss and keep fighting gluttony? I might get to my healthy weight faster.
But I have no idea if I have the will and discipline to do so. I do have desire. Desire alone has not helped in all these years. I have to keep working at it. I hope to have a why in order to be able to effectively will it and be disciplined.
Why should I work harder on getting fit? I have no answer yet except that such an event will be really cool. I wonder how many things I would be able to do with ease that I have never done in all my life because I was unable to do so. But that is not reason enough to put myself through the torture of exercise and weight loss. I will keep thinking. I know there is an upside. But there are downsides too. I fear bingeing and going back to square one – which I want to avoid at all costs.
